Didn't do well today. Lately I've just been miserable, and I guess I'm trying to ameliorate that with comfort food.
Breakfast was the low-carb thing I often like to start my day with. Scrambled eggs, bacon and sausage. Lunch was a roast beef sandwich with a caesar salad. I was actually going to stop there, but then found myself heading out for a burger and fries at 10pm. Then I tried to stop myself and come to some compromise, so I ordered a crispy chicken sandwich with fries instead (as if that's any better).
Then I tried to talk my way through eating it and kept telling myself to eat slowly and stop when I was full.
Then I ate the entire thing. Haha.
2300 calories for the day.
And I just found out The Who is playing the halftime show on Sunday.
My favorite song of theirs. I always associate it with Kevin Spacey's transformation in that movie American Beauty.
I'm a fan of The Who, but half the band is dead and the guys remaining are in their 60s. I don't understand why they're being tapped for the halftime show.
But Paul McCartney gave probably my favorite halftime performance of all time. Age wasn't a factor there. Maybe it'll work out.
I seem to have stopped trying to lose weight. I'm not really backsliding because I'm never eating enough to actually gain weight. But at the same time I'm barely eating little enough to lose much weight.
I need to find motivation. I don't know what I'm losing weight for, really. I know I'll be healthier and I'll look better in clothes. What else? I've lived the life of a sedentary fat person for the last 13 years, so it's not like I'm aching to run out and go skiing or anything. I've never done anything physical.
I guess I'll probably have more confidence which will have a ripple effect to every facet of my life.
I need to adhere to some new rule. Below 1500 calories every day, maybe. I'll figure something out and start after Superbowl Sunday.