Didn't do well today. Lately I've just been miserable, and I guess I'm trying to ameliorate that with comfort food.
Breakfast was the low-carb thing I often like to start my day with. Scrambled eggs, bacon and sausage. Lunch was a roast beef sandwich with a caesar salad. I was actually going to stop there, but then found myself heading out for a burger and fries at 10pm. Then I tried to stop myself and come to some compromise, so I ordered a crispy chicken sandwich with fries instead (as if that's any better).
Then I tried to talk my way through eating it and kept telling myself to eat slowly and stop when I was full.
Then I ate the entire thing. Haha.
2300 calories for the day.
And I just found out The Who is playing the halftime show on Sunday.
My favorite song of theirs. I always associate it with Kevin Spacey's transformation in that movie American Beauty.
I'm a fan of The Who, but half the band is dead and the guys remaining are in their 60s. I don't understand why they're being tapped for the halftime show.
But Paul McCartney gave probably my favorite halftime performance of all time. Age wasn't a factor there. Maybe it'll work out.
I seem to have stopped trying to lose weight. I'm not really backsliding because I'm never eating enough to actually gain weight. But at the same time I'm barely eating little enough to lose much weight.I need to find motivation. I don't know what I'm losing weight for, really. I know I'll be healthier and I'll look better in clothes. What else? I've lived the life of a sedentary fat person for the last 13 years, so it's not like I'm aching to run out and go skiing or anything. I've never done anything physical.
I guess I'll probably have more confidence which will have a ripple effect to every facet of my life.
I need to adhere to some new rule. Below 1500 calories every day, maybe. I'll figure something out and start after Superbowl Sunday.
Until tomorrow,
Eric
Well, I can tell you a few reasons why to lose weight. Right now you're in your early 20's right? Well, when you get closer to 30, you'll really start to feel the negative effects of being overweight. You'll start out having slightly bad cholesterol, that will turn into high blood pressure that will give you headaches. Then there's sleep apnea, gallbladder disease, hormonal problems (yes for men too), knees will hurt, you'll find it hard to do simple things like tieing your shoes, or fitting into a public restroom stall, and then there's the hurt that's caused to family members b/c they are afraid of you dieing before them. Binge eating and morbid obesity robs us of our lives and makes us miserable...not only that, but unatural food can hurt our moods. I spent a very long time not caring if I die b/c I felt I had nothing worth living for. I had kids and all that changed. My kids forced me to live life...turns out life is good if you choose to put things into it. I have let so many years go by and have caused myself a lot of problems healthwise and now I pray that I still have enough time to change things. Don't wait...it will catch up with you so fast. I've looked at your past blog entries and I can relate a lot. Well, I weigh well over 300lbs. and I can tell you that being this size was not worth the "bingeing high". We only have one life...YOU only have one life. Don't let it pass you by...even if it means totally making over your life. Confidence from losing weight...sure it's great, but not dieing at an early age is definitely something to shoot for. That's what I'm aiming for anyway...if that helps you any.
ReplyDeleteI hope you can find your motivation, because if you don't, you will be 30 and overweight, then 60 and then 50...it's a long road ahead of you. If you're going to live, you might as well live healthy, it's alot easier.
ReplyDeleteI hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
So I think the reason you're having trouble finding your motivation is because you haven't ever really been healthy. Or at least if you have, you can't remember it. I guarantee you that the way you feel when you're eating well and being physically active is way better than any feeling food can give you. And it's not just how you feel physically. You will be more confident, like you already said, and you'll feel better about yourself because you know that you're not getting controlled by food. I reckon that if you were eating cleanly and exercising you would already be feeling a lot better and be very motivated to continue in this journey.
ReplyDeleteI agree with the comments above. I waited until I was 31 to begin losing and it was because my blood pressure and cholesterol numbers were beginning to go upward and I was staying constantly sick. After losing 70 pounds and exercising 5 days a week, I feel so incredible. It really is something you need to experience. You will question why you didn't do it sooner. I wish I had done this when I was your age.
ReplyDeleteI didn’t begin this way. In the beginning I counted calories and struggled to keep my intake under 2000. After doing it for almost a year, the food I eat is so much healthier now and my activity level is greater than it has been since grade school.
I read some of your first posts and I am so impressed with your progress. Just keep going in that direction. Feeling better is habit forming.
congrats on the weight loss
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